Symphony

Lastnight, went to a concert held at Barclay Theater at University of California, Irvine.
The concert was held by Pacific Youth Orchestra or something. They were amazing! I was expecting some local youth garage band type. But these kids were great! Performance was rather short, I thought.
It was was well worth my time.

So I hung out with one of the kids that performed with the orchestra, her friend, their youth group teacher (she's a friend of mine. That's how I ended up at the concert in the first place), and the parents of the kids and their friends. I didn't mind spending time with the kids. They were friendly kids - much "well mannered", for the lack of better words, than I had thought they would be. Then there were the parents.

I get this eerie feeling being in presence of a group of 1st generation Koreans. I don't know what it is. I just feel so uneasy. I always feel like I'm being judged - like they're discussing my looks, choice of my attire, my choice to wear my hair longer than the "norm". Maybe it's insecurity. Or maybe I've been burned by so many of them, that I just don't care to be in their presence. But then, have I, really?
I dunno. But one thing is for sure.
I do not like to be in a setting where I'm surrounded by Koreans - doesn't matter whether 1st generation, 2nd generation, or what. And definitely not Korean church people. Especially not Korean church people.
That's a big hinderance for me.
I don't know what it is. But I get really uncomfortable. What a surprise, huh.

Right now I'm listening to Typical Cats. Poetry with rhythm.