Merry Christmas

There are those who love Christmas season.
And then there are those who absolutely dred the holiday season. For some, holiday seasons are nothing but reminders of their loneliness and pain.
Some will say that holiday seasons are the loneliest times of the year. And that we should embrace those in need of family. Relationships.

I used to absolutely hate this Christmas / New Years holiday season. Every Christmas and every New Years brought nothing but a reminder of how alone I truly am in this world we live in - alone yet again even in this world with unimaginable, unfathomable, never-ending possibilities.

It's a bit different this year, though.
I'm not drowned in a pool of sorrow or pain. I'm not holding myself tightly with arms around my chest, tyring to ease the pain right in the center of my chest that stems from the emptiness in my life that we all think can be resolved with the love of that special someone.

No.
It's different this year.
I'm simply bored. I don't long to be in love this holiday season - although that would be absolutely fantastic. I simply want friends to laugh with, with whom I can grab a few bottles of beer.

Cursed this alone-ness!
I don't even have any beer in the house! I have many bottles of wine. Quality wine. But it's just not the same.
Sometimes you just want ice cold beer.