Hazy Day

Gawd!
How can you say that? ? ?

I met a girl looooong time ago. Her name's Helen.
I ran into her today. Said, "hey Helen, how you doin'?", blah, blah, blah.
Blah, Blah, Blah.
And for no apparent reason, as we were talking, I start thinking, "is her lastname Kim? I think her full name is Helen Kim."
Then I blurted out, "hey, so how's your smallgroup, Kim?"

She looked at me with this dumb-founded look. Then it hit me!
Her name's not Kim, you idiot! Her name is Helen! How the hell did you manage to F' that up?

Then she walked away. Gave me a pat on my shoulder as she passed behind me. And was gone into another faded and frustrating memory. DAMN!

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The whole day is a little hazy.
Actually, no. I remember all that happened today.
I just couldn't remember the important things as life happened right before my eyes...

There's a new lady working at the drycleaners. She started two weeks ago, she said. And will be there until November. Forgot where she's from. Definitely not a Californian. She told me her name is April. I think. Many pieces since the time I said hi to her are hazy. I wanted to say, "ok see you on Wednesday, April!" Then I caught myself because I wasn't sure whether her name is April. December. Or maybe even something totally different. Like Julianne.

Some pieces are just hazy. New and old.
How could I have called her Kim?!?!