Dream

Funny thing about taking a day off...

I'd always think that I'd get a whole lot done with extra time that I'd have with not having gone into work.
Funny thing is...
I end up doing nothing.
And find nothings to do in order to pass time because,
boy I have so much time on my hands when I don't have to spend 10 hours out of 24 hours a day at work.

What's scary is...
In the past I would not have been able to sit home and look for nothings to do...
I would always have things to do. Always an agenda.
But now...
Now it's different.

There's no passion.
No drive.
No hope.

Do you see a glimpse of a light?
Because sometimes that's all you need.
But I don't.
It's pitch black.

Just finished watching Million Dollar Baby.
Sad movie.
Angry movie.

"If there's magic in boxing, it's the magic of fighting battles beyond endurance, beyond cracked ribs, ruptured kidneys and detached retinas. It's the magic of risking everything for a dream that nobody sees but you." - Eddie Scrap-Iron Dupris -

...risking everything for a dream that nobody sees but you.

but whatif even you don't see that dream? ? ?