iCards

I just received this iCard from my friend Andy.


Now how can you not love this man?
I need all the help and lovin' I can get.

"Hope leads to Courage..."

Current State

Life sucks right now.

But this sting in my heart will soon be of no bother.
No. Not because it will heal. Because I'll become immune to the pain. As I always do.

Hearts Desire

Your hearts desire.
Your logical reasoning for saving money.
The reality and your ability to follow the desires of your heart.

Damn.
I need to learn to just follow my heart.
But my heart's divided.
There lies the problem.

However my heart's divided only for financial reasons.
Damn.

I need to get out.
I need to move on.
I need to find my adventure. My battle. My beauty.

Damn.
I just ate a bite of Ritter Sport: Milk Chocolate with Butter Biscuit.
My favorite chocolate snack from Trader Joe's.
And I brushed my teeth only 20 seconds prior to taking that bite.
Damn.

Bored

Ugh!
So friggin' bored. Bored with life.
Yup, that's right. Bored with LIFE.

It's nothing new. I've (not always, but sure feels like forever) had hard time finding contentment in life.
Is that bad? I don't think so.
It just means that I need to keep "moving" and keep my life exciting.

That's it! "EXCITING!"
'tis the curse of an active mind. I need to keep moving. Whether it be forward or sideways.
In any direction! Anything but stagnant.

I used to say that people who are addicted to TV shows and movies like to get absorbed into them - in hopes, perhaps - to live their lives through such medium - the characters in TV shows and movies. Is that why many of us are so obsessed with celebrities and their lives?

Anyway...
I used to also say that "I make my own movie!" - through my life.
But now seems like my film is stuck on a constant loop - with no change, no excitement, no adventure.
CRAP!

If I were Will Ferrel in the movie, "Stranger than Fiction," what would my story be?
It wouldn't be romance. There's no love interest here.
Not action. Nothing's being blown up nor am I fighting for any greater cause (peace, freedom, love, survival, recognition...)
Not comedy. Although I AM living the "OfficeSpace" life.
Not tragedy. Maybe tragedy. But there really isn't any tragic event happening in my life except that I am cruising through life and wasting every second of it!

So... if my life were a story...
It's so dang bland, that I don't even have a theme for my life!

Now THAT'S a tragedy.

Secure Future /= Good Future

Here's a quote I just read:

"It doesn't do me any good to have a secure future if I don't have any future,"

The lady was talking about her crappy job, where she doesn't see any future.
Hence, having a secure job doesn't do no one any good if there's no future with that job.

Amen to that.

Bart Knows

Hell ya! I am!

Let Me Take Some Of The Punches For You

Makes me think about who's got my back.

Here's a song from U2:

“Sometimes You Can't Make It On Your Own"

Tough, you think you've got the stuff
You're telling me and anyone
You're hard enough

You don't have to put up a fight
You don't have to always be right
Let me take some of the punches
For you tonight

Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone

And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own

We fight all the time
You and I...that's alright
We're the same soul
I don't need...I don't need to hear you say
That if we weren't so alike
You'd like me a whole lot more

Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone

And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own

I know that we don't talk
I'm sick of it all
Can - you - hear - me - when - I -
Sing, you're the reason I sing
You're the reason why the opera is in me...

Where are we now?
I've still got to let you know
A house still doesn't make a home
Don't leave me here alone...

And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you that makes it hard to let go
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
Sometimes you can't make it
The best you can do is to fake it
Sometimes you can't make it on your own

In A Long Time

Went fishing at Newport Harbor yesterday.
Rented a skiff (14' boat with a tiny motor) and cruised all around the harbor.
Turned out to be a beautiful day!
And somewhat relaxing ...after having traded in boat for the one without motor problems.

Fish on!

Ooo-la-la!

Good times

No Love

This is exactly why I don't like cable modem broadband.
My roommate is watching some TV show on her computer and it's eating up all the bandwidth.
So I can't get anything done online.
Even checking my email takes uncomfortably longer.
Fuck!
With DSL, this would not be a problem.

This is why I don't like cable modem.

How Lovely Though Art

An email I received from a friend.
...well, more like a friend of a friend. I've only met her three times total.

How I am touched by this email from a near-stranger...

"Orange is a nice town. Where are you working?
I was working in Orange and living outside of orange, sounds like you have the set up the other way around.
the many times i lived in a person's house, it worked out very well, since day one. i guess i was lucky everytime to run into very nice people.
things happen for a reason, don't you think? so don't feel bad about your decisions. even bad ones are yours, and it's ok as long as you own it. and keep God in the center of all these. especially when things get confusing and terrible. i was reading samuel, and it has a verse that says something like don't turn away from God after something bad but turn to Him even more fervently. don't have a bible with me right now, will get you the exact verse when i get home, he he.
I have an extra ticket to hollywood bowl this thursday if you want to drive up. sarah chang, violin, i think the concert starts at 8pm.
if not, you are welcome to come up visit LA anytime.
take care of yourself, "

Ahhh...

I miss sailing.
It's been several years since I've been out on the "treacherous" waters.
Arrrggghhh...

THIS is one of many things I wanna do before I leave the earth.

How cool would that be to visit the land of ice!

Good Ol' Times...

A weekend spent in Roseville, Sacramento, & San Francisco.
It just so turned out to be a much needed vacation.








Of course the more fun pictures are staying right on my computer. =P

Sometimes. But it'd be better to be Never

Some people don't seem to give a F*%# about the well being of others.
Even if those others are your own family.
How F*d up is that?

Oh well.
We all pick our own choices. Make our own decisions.
Even though sometimes those decisions are heavily influenced by others.
That's where it gets F*d up!
"Others" don't care about the well being of YOU.
All they care about is their own self-interest. Their own greed.

Of course I'm heavily generalizing this. There are people who genuinely care.
Those people, of course, tend not be the ones to press.

Never go against your heart.
And never go against your reasoning.

...else you'll get F*d by others influence

Type6, I am

I'm a skeptic.
Especially when it comes to "personality test" and such.

But it's fun to see what others have to say about you.
And it can be really helpful too!

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If you know of anyone, let me know.

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Africa

Another ...of many stories...

InvisibleChildren

Pro Gaming

For all those whose many childhood dreams have been crushed by single-track narrow-minded parents...

S.Korean National Hero

click on photo to read article

SexEd

"You wouldn't buy a car without putting some miles on it, would you?"

click on the photo to watch video

Phonograph

Sweeet!

I've been wanting to get my hands on one of these for suuuper long time!
And finally... here it is.
A 1963 Airline Stereophonic Phonograph and AM-FM Radio.
Sold exclusively by Montgomery Ward! HaHa!

Rush

Why are we always so busy to get through life?
What's the rush? Where are we going...?

Some thoughts that's been in my mind.
And apparently I'm not the only one who have thought through it..... going through it..... and made somewhat of a decision upon it.

Only if we can eliminate the ONE thing that's eating up most of our time on a day to day basis...
Then will we be not so rushed?

Probably not.
But it would definitely help.

Snow Trip 2007

Another year, another trip.
This time INTERNATIONAL!
.....to Panorama Mtn. in BC, Canada.

Enjoy the pics.....

Ski_Trip_2007

"The Talk"

It's interesting.....

Many times we're just so afraid of bringing up what's on our minds and talking over it.
Sometimes we avoid it because we just don't know where to start nor what to say.
And other times we say things that are not entirely true - in hopes of guarding ourselves from feelings of failure / rejection / or heartache.
Yeah. It's interesting.....

Practitioners

Yai!

I finally finished another book. Another book to add onto my list of favorites.
Yes!

"So from now on, with Mary, I must answer from that place deep inside, which suggests that the emerging future is so impossible that all I can do is say, 'Yes, bring it on. . . Yah-weh.' "

- Si Johnston -

That is my prayer for 2007.
That I would learn to embrace the idea that "the emerging future is so impossible that all I can do is say, 'Yes, bring it on!' "

OpportuneTime

Ever hear that song, "She will be loved" by Maroon5?
Yeah.....

Emotions

Ran into some good ol' friend today. Unexpectedly

I was hangin' out at the Rainforest Cafe' in Downtown, Disney - waiting for a table - when this older gnetleman comes, taps on my shoulder, and asks if whether I'm Eric Oh.
Now I have a terrible memory when it comes to faces and names, so I'm trying my hardest to try to remember where I would have met him before -- all the while he was telling me a bunch of stuff about his family and that some people are wanting to meet me.

WHA??!?!?

Then I heard, "Woody Garrett..... Robinson's Taekwondo....."
Holy crap! The Garrets are here?!??!

Apparently he was the dad.
Now I felt really bad. Because I don't remember this person at all!
But the mom..... yeah, I totally remember. Now that he's told me that they're the Garretts.

See, I saw her while I was walking into the restaurant. Stopped briefly to look at her and the crowd posing for a picture. But totally didn't register to me that I've met her somewhere before!

So it turns out they're here on vacation.
All the kids graduated from Berkeley (all five of them), and now they've joined the workforce.
The kids are scattered all over the places -- bay area, sacramento, etc. etc.

When I saw Lori, though.....
I was flooded with emotions. Maybe it's because I instantly recognized her as Lori, the lil' sister.
Here's a girl with whom I've spent a good part of my adolescent life, and haven't seen for the last 10 years!
Oh my..... how much she has grown.
She's now 23. Out of college. And working.
And CUTE!

Crazy.....
Who knew I'd be running into the Garretts tonight.
Crazy.....

Happy New Year!

We had a huge successful turnout at NewSong North OC NewYearsParty.
It was gnarly!

Check it out for yourself.

NewYearsParty2006